Monday

I saw Lin again today...why can I not get away from my ex's?  I had to go over there to pick up some stuff...she had let me leave some things when I was going away to Leeds to study.

When I got there I could see she was depressed, she was not getting along with her flat-mates.  They had started out as friends but somehow the relationship had gone bad.  I suspected Linda as the culprit...when you meet her at first she is an angel, but after a wile she becomes introverted and difficult (stobborn and suspicious).

She moaned for about two hours and I listened without comment.  I gathered that part of the problem had to do with money -- she was paying her flat-mate rent and her flat-mate didnt want to give her anything in writing...whether it be reciepts or contracts.

I did'nt want to hear about it...when you need a friend Linda is not there...but she feels she can be your friend when it suits her.  I tried to calm her down and alay her fears.  But what can I do in a situation like this?  I am not ashamed to say that once upon a time I was in love with Linda...the thing was I did'nt want to be drawn back into "her world".

I stayed for two cups of tea and we tried to talk about other things...Gordon Brown, the possibility of me doing a Phd, her boyfriend.  She said that she had begun to go to bed early...at around 10PM.  She was studying to be an accountant and her exam was soon.  I wanted to leave so told her that I had better let her sleep.

She walked me to the station and we said goodbye -- I dont know when I'll see her again but whenever it is I wont be worried.